Goodbye Writing

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I am putting the pen and paper down.
No longer will I be writing.

No one cares about my writing.
I see that now.

Started writing to get the pain and anger out of me from my whole life.

I see it hasn't worked.

I just want to be the person I am supposed to be.
Beable to show someone I love them
Instead of picking and pulling 
us apart.
Love myself so I can create the 
Happiness I so deserve.

Here I am still lost, with all this extra weight I been carrying with me my whole damn life.
It's so heavy I can't even lift my head and stand up straight.
That's not a life it's a mental prison

So I am trying to break my shackles
Of trauma so I can find where I left off.

I lost the love of my life

I truly am sorry Alex M for the pain I caused you. You will forever be my forever love. I’m hoping we could try it again.
My soul loved him before my heart could skip a beat
because of the trauma that has built up inside me my whole life I couldn’t show him the love he deserves and act right.