Not Leaving

I barely slept It’s like my life is flashing Before my eyes Why this Why now I know when it’s our time Boom we go Life isn’t fair I never knew who I was felt like I didn’t belong Trap in a hell on earth Til I found myself Now your telling me My time is near How can that be I fought so hard To get on my feet To be the new me Finally wanted to experience what the world Has to offer Find my happy ever after Know what it truly feels like to be loved the way I supposed to be Now your trying to take me Before I find that That’s the reason I still here All those times I tried to end my life You wouldn’t allow it Now my days are numbered How can it end this way I don’t even talk to my brother Mom dad and my sister are all up there With you All I have is my kids and My best friend I telling you this is a mistake Since struggle was keeping My head above water I never seen the true colors Laughed as my true self Explored the parts of the world That only few have seen The people who are dear to me That have my heart Need me to stay They been through so much Their going to be incomplete I can’t allow them to feel the pain I did So I am asking you LORD change my time Take it back Not ready to leave My story just started Figure out my best friend Is my soulmate I already told him how I feel Not giving up on that man I told him I would never leave him And I not breaking my promise I’m hardhead don’t know when to quit So all the sudden this cancer going to Kill me No Lord it’s not I am sorry to say My Kids and Best Friend need me So I am going to stay

Not Leaving
Not Leaving
JulieC.Lara

I lost who I was long ago caring for everyone else but me. When I found myself again, I learned I coud write. Since that day I have not stopped!