I write to vent! Who are you to tell me that what I write is not fucking worth reading? I have depression so bad it’s hard some days to get out of bed! You haven’t lived my life! I barely made it out alive, it damn near killed me. Many…

Lord, Can we talk? Lord, I need to talk to you! How are you doing? I have a question. Do you ever stress? Well, I do! I got some stuff I need to talk to you about and it will not be easy. So if you have time for me, can…

Where do I start Life is now incomplete My heart feels so empty I am numb You were taken too soon There was so much we didn’t get to do So much we left unsaid I have my moments where the Tears just fall Wiping them away I am trying to be strong Knowing I will never hear Your voice Get a phone call Or a visit from you Has me lost You always had the right words To say when times got tough, When my world was upside down, There you were with a huge smile Beers in each hand Saying it will be alright Drink up buttercup No time to be sad Tomorrow is a different day Let shit that worries you go Live your life for you Don’t overthink what can’t be changed Live in the now Not in the past I miss you so much The days get harder They run together How do I live without? My brother!

Where do I start? It shouldn’t be this hard to write about my daddy who passed away August 28th 2011. There is so much I want to tell you besides I love and miss you. I just can’t find the right words to put on paper. My mind goes blank. The anxiety sets…

BLESSED I yearn for the answers God selects the most perfect people we know in our lives. Why are some given the chance of staying a day, week, month, year, or maybe even a lifetime here? The tribulations we face, the emptiness we feel, The heartache will never bring anyone…

I wish to express something to you, entertain refer to it! If I had a moment to six years to continue, And we determined not to speak anymore I would somehow get a message for you. I crave to acknowledge you for being my hero, maintaining me, because of you…

I am so distressed about carrying shite in. They have poisoned my name through slush for poop, I didn’t play. You crave to denounce me for you all’s throwing? The misrepresents that your gate expressed. Individuals evaluating me for shite they heard! Now I am clearing my fucking name. My…

I barely slept It’s like my life is flashing Before my eyes Why this Why now I know when it’s our time Boom we go Life isn’t fair I never knew who I was felt like I didn’t belong Trap in a hell on earth Til I found myself Now your telling me My time is near How can that be I fought so hard To get on my feet To be the new me Finally wanted to experience what the world Has to offer Find my happy ever after Know what it truly feels like to be loved the way I supposed to be Now your trying to take me Before I find that That’s the reason I still here All those times I tried to end my life You wouldn’t allow it Now my days are numbered How can it end this way I don’t even talk to my brother Mom dad and my sister are all up there With you All I have is my kids and My best friend I telling you this is a mistake Since struggle was keeping My head above water I never seen the true colors Laughed as my true self Explored the parts of the world That only few have seen The people who are dear to me That have my heart Need me to stay They been through so much Their going to be incomplete I can’t allow them to feel the pain I did So I am asking you LORD change my time Take it back Not ready to leave My story just started Figure out my best friend Is my soulmate I already told him how I feel Not giving up on that man I told him I would never leave him And I not breaking my promise I’m hardhead don’t know when to quit So all the sudden this cancer going to Kill me No Lord it’s not I am sorry to say My Kids and Best Friend need me So I am going to stay

Photo by Vladislav Muslakov on Unsplash I am DONE! When people use, abuse and take advantage most of your life you get tired. After being treated as if we are dog shit, Our hearts are golden We try to find the good in people, Giving more chances than they deserve. …